I'm sort of at a strange place right now. Work is good, but unrelenting since the start of August. I've worked quite a few nights and weekends since August and stand to do a few more before this year is done. I have 2 magazines to layout this month, and a whole lot more little stuff. It's starting to wear on me a little bit. Our Fall Break starts on Wednesday and lasts through Monday, but I'm going to have to put in some hours working again. Worked Sunday morning while Jamie went with Anna to her parent's church.

Couple that with the end of "The Door," and I'm sort of in a valley in my journey. I was riding such a high for such a long time and then the bottom just kind of fell out. Now it's like I'm lost and I can't figure out how to find a place where I feel close to God again.

I think that ending "The Door" was the right decision. Work is so busy right now that I couldn't have put any time into. If I still had the two other leaders on board, I could have shuffled some of that over to others for a while until things settled down.

So, we were set to visit Collierville FUMC last weekend when I noticed an ad in the paper for an "Alternative" service at 10:50 at Germantown Baptist, one of the mega-churches around here and I decided, what the hell, let's give it a shot. We got there and the service was moved with no directions as to where to find it, so Jamie made some sort of comment about wanting to go to the Contemporary service, not understanding that what some churches consider "Contemporary" is really cheesy and bad and that's exactly what it was. There was promise though when we checked the website before we went they were advertising a Monday night post-modern service called Ecclesia with a musician leading the music that we were familiar with. I was excited about the prospects of that.

Fast forward, the "alternative service" is just in another room with another band playing more rock oriented CCM stuff, so it's really not alternative per se, in style, just maybe musically. And the Ecclesia service was in the bulletin that Sunday and it's for 18-25. Jamie asked about it when she called and we were basically discouraged from coming because it's not geared for us. That's a mistake on their part. We may just go anyway, when we can get a baby sitter again.